Julie and Julia

At the moment I am watching the movie Julie and Julia. It has really gotten me into a blogging mood, which at the moment is blissful. I don't know what has led me to this new found happiness but I hope that it doesn't go anywhere. Earlier today I was feeling really down, stupidily down, the kind of down where you think you just can't get up. But by the end of the day or week or sometimes even month you are out of that slump. I usually just think to myself "why am I so down?" Although my mood has improved, my writing skills certainly haven't.

I am extremely excited for work this summer. I work at the lake in Sterling, as a part time lifeguard and a full time friend.. I mean camp counselor. I am a counselor to the first and second graders, I absolutely adore them. They are to butter to my toast, they make me want to have a million children. I guess that's my true calling.... camp counselor. GAH! Whatever though, if that's all I'm good at, at least I'm good at something!

Craving meat is not a good part of living as a vegetarian.

When i get into a good mood, I want EVERYONE to be in a good mood. I think that's another thing I'm good at, cheering people up. If I can make one person happy, I feel like a million bucks. The only problem that I have with this is listening to people's problems. I mean how much bad news can one take!? But honestly, if I had to give up making people happy, I just wouldn't have a reason to be happy myself.

God, watching myslef type makes me realize that I am so not good at writing. I think that's why I'm in language in comp, I tell everyone it's because I didn't pass in a critique, (which is the truth) but maybe it's just because I SUCK! "LOL".

I slept until 11:00 today, what a great feeling. Throughout this day with myself I think I have become closer... with myself. I have four followers on this thing, (blogspot) and I really don't think any of them read it. This blog is such a joke, or becoming a joke. why the hell should I care that I have 4 followers and that others have like 99482984? Doesn't that sound ridiculous, that I would get upset about the fact that I am not being followed and that people aren't reading everything that's on my mind. What did people do before telephones and computers and automobiles. Oh that's right, they dies of the bubonic plague.

So what if I actually care? I mean who doesn't care what others think or read or write about them!? I looked throgh my facebook today and looked at the different people that wrote on my wall. What was I thinking? By the way, I was at a bad point earlier in the afternoon. I LOVE INSPIRATION!!

So I'm done now, I'm finally done with this ridiculously long drawn out, overly peppy blog.

Mood... still excellent. If anyone reads this, I hope they feel better about the fact that Brandon Sills, the world famous Brandon Sills is in fact a human being with real self consiousness, and spelling errors, and human errors, and emotional high points and low points. I'm so happy that I got to know myslef a little better today. My sister just questioned why my blog is so long. I should stop.