Inspiration?

So totally awesome is going to be my blog title until further notice.

I have a problem with inspiration, or deciding on how i'm going to act upon my inspiration. Sometimes i write poetry, and by sometimes i mean like a year ago. I wish i was better at art, because i really want to draw certain things and i really want to paint certain things but i just don't have that capability. You could call that lack of trying though. I guess what I am is lazy, I'm going to fix that though. Some kids in my grade have such drive. It's like they're constantly hopped up on ADD meds. Obviously they aren't they just really care about their futures, and i really respect that. Lately i have been really into a band called Beirut. i think that they have been inspiring me. A lot of my friends know exactly what they are going to do with their lives, most of my days recently have been filled with worrying about what the hell I'm going to do when i get out of college. I'm getting over the fact that i don't know what to do, life is going to have to be a journey and i think I'm becoming more okay with that. Midterms have really gotten the best of me, I'm determined to do well on them. I've ever really cared about grades this much but I'm pretty sure it's because of Mel Mel. Also Glee has become a HUGE part of my life, I'm a total Gleek. Obviously my favorite character is Kurt and as lame as this sounds i really relate to him. They are holding open auditions for Glee in February. That's one thing that I think i have a talent in; acting. I love being on stage, and being in Wachusett Drama has opened so many doors for me. Becoming a famous actor is obviously reaching for the stars but, if I don't set high expectations then I won't get anywhere in life. It all comes down to inspiration... as I get older though, it takes so much more to inspire me. I'm going to work on that, I really miss my childhood innosence. I miss a lot. May as well stop whining though, when life throws you lemons, MAKE SOME KICK ASS LEMONADE.