Happy Birthday JENNIFER

There are like four days until Christmas and yet I am no where near in the Christmas spirit!!
I think it's because all the stress.

Although I don't talk to my mom anymore I really dislike it when my family talks negatively abour her. It almost seems wrong. She did give birth to me, right?

Anyways, my race to finish my college things are almost done! It feels damn good. I want to sleep for an eternity. I have noticed that I talk about what I want on this blog a lot, I'm going to say what I don't want. I don't want to not get accepted into college, I don't want AIDS, I don't want the plague.

As I sat today, painting in my AP art class I realized that I love art all over again. For a while I was worrying about going to an art college but I'm really not afraid at all, bring it on. I want someone to make a movie with me! Any volunteers?!

FAIL BLOG. Whatevah it felt good to write something.
Writing is one of the best things, everytime I blog I feel better afterwards, it's like taking a burden off of my soul. Speaking of souls, I feel like my soul needs some watering. I want it to grow and flourish like a tree. What if I was a tree? That's be an interesting life to lead growing and splitting. I guess I do that anyways.

I saw two really great films this week, I saw Donnie Darko and Pan's Labyrinth. They were both such beautiful and intersting movies. I feel like my childhood was depraved, I never saw any great inspiring movies.

The best christmas song ever is All That I Want by The Weepies.
Having a fake christmas tree doesn't help the christmas spirit. Although I have to admit, when it was snowing today I couldn't stop grinning! It's going to snow on christmas, I think it's weird when it doesn't.

Today and yesterday I've been realizing how much I love Melina, I've always known she is great and my best friend and all but these last two days have somehow made us so much closer, I lvoe my mountain llama.
I want to go to Europe, I wonder if the air tastes different over there.