Lately I've really wanted to make a movie, like a really interesting movie. I wish I had a video camera... I lost my families video camera. I'm still paying for it.
I really want tio go to Europe! I don't have a passport though, not talking to my mom is really difficult because she doesn't want me to have a passport.
It's been more than a year since I've been to my mom's house. I don't know how I feel about it anymore. I guess just apathetic.

I have decided this week is going to be my sobriety week. I have been smoking a lot lately, to the point where three bowls isn't even getting me that high.
Also whenever I smoke that much I end up so tired. I feel like I am constantly dragging myself places and my eyelids are always so heavy. Therefore this week is my sobriety week!!

You know when you are looking into the mirror and you stare yourself in the eyes? That is one of the strangest things ever, it's like strangely not awkward but at the same time so mysterious. It's like you finally realize you're a person, but in the weirdest way, because not only are you diving into yourself but yourself is diving into you. Does that make any sense?
You know what else is weird about being alone with mirrors? When you make the most ridiculous faces into it, not even just funny faces that you make around your friends like THE most ridiculous faces. Being alone with your own self is sometimes really strange. One of the weirdest things is watching yourself talk. I usually get annoyed with myself.

Whenever I drive I get really streesed out. If I see someone in my rearview mirror I either think they are going to follow me to my house and brutally kill me or I think they're a cop.
I don't actually think I'm going to be killed I just have a really wild imagination, an entire horror movie flashes through my eyes.
I hate suspence.

Whenever I am watching a horror film and the music is all tense and the lighting is low I freak out. I literally bury my face into the closest thing to me. When I went to see "The Last Exorcism" I was buried in Melina's arm for a lot of it. The movie wasn't even that scary!!

I've started the book Running With Scissors, I never want to put it down!
I really suggest everyone read it.

I love how while you are typing a blog it is constantly being auto saved. What if it was lost, would that really matter. I wish word documents would auto save, do they auto save?

I really just want to start drawing in my AP art class but alas MADAME FUSCO would rather talk at us all class. Art class is like the only class I ever want to get down to business (to defeat the huns) in and it's the only class where my teachers talk at me for the whole class. I love being a co owner of the senior art studio. I also love owning the big locker ;)
That's enough for today, I kinda missed blogging.