FOR THE FIRST TIME ON TOP MODEL HISTORY!!

On behalf of the last day of Summer I decided that I would go for a walk to my favorite little trail. It's so weird, seasons pass so quickly and yet I feel like it's been Summer for the longest time. Although I am melancholy about the fact that Summer is ending I am embracing Autumn with open arms. I like the word Autumn a lot better than Fall, it really describes the season as how I see it.
I really want to get rid of my cell phone. It just weighs me down so much.

You know what I don't understand?.. Why it is so strange to tell someone that you are interested in them. Why does that matter, we are human beings aren't we?
I guess I'm just a load of talk though, I would never tell anyone that I was CRUSHIN on them. All I want right now is to fall asleep on top of someone. I love sucking up other peoples body heat, I love human contact.

As I was walking down the trail today I realized (again) how much I want a camera. I want to take beautiful pictures, not for anyone else but myself. I love creating beautiful things. I think that's why I love art so much. It's so interesting that a tube of color or a stick of graphite can create such beautiful things.
The trail that I go on is illegal to walk through, I don't quite understand that, why are some parts of the world illegal to walk on. As I was sitting in the huge gorgeous field soaking up every last piece of Summer into my pores I realized how constrained we are as humans. Why am I not allowed to venture into unknown places, does anyone really own the earth? Is that even possible? What happens when the people that own that trail die, or what happens when I get caught by them (I assume it is Government owned land)? Why must I pay a consequence for pure intrigue?
As I was perched upon the untouched land I watched all of the animals on the trail and felt pure envy. Animals can do whatever they want, they run on pure instinct. I want to run on pure instinct.

I'm wearing shorts right now, I missed shorts, I love bare legs. I have a huge vendetta against leggings and tights, I literally hate them. I have absolutely no idea why. I think it's because I love bare legs so much.

I miss lifeguarding a whole lot, I wore my guard sweathshirt today for that very reason. I love watching people splash and play and scream and run and swim. I also miss swim team, I think I'm going to join again. I also think I'm going to stop smoking so many cigarettes.

Today I realized that my favorite color is yellow, I want to incoorperate yellow into everything I do. I also want to start wearing more yellow. I want to create something right now; a hat made out of can tabs.

America's Next Top Model is on tonight! I love that show, Tyra Banks is INSANE!!
I watch the Tyra Show because I love hearing her talk about how weird normal things are. Also on ANTM she always does something for the the first time on top model history and she always says it like that. "For the first time on TOP MODEL HISTORY I'm going to have you models walk across a tight rope 5,000 feet in the air with no harness over a lake of hungry alligators!!!!" And the models are always like "Tyra knows what she is talkkkin 'bout, I'm going to own dat tight rope and if I fall it just goes to show dat I want this more den any of da otha gurls" and then there is the one sane model that's like "Uhhhh I don't know Tyra, that sounds really dangerous, I don't know if I want to do it." And then Tyra is like "Well... I guess you don't want this bad enough, if you're not going to do this don't waste my time, you are going to be kicked out of America's Next Top Model."
LOL

Okay I'm done, that was a bit ridiculous.