Usually when I am dead broke I am not in the middle of a big city I am at home and can possibly ask my dad for money if I am desperate enough. I feel so bad because everyone wants to do something and I just feel so helpless saying "I can't i have no money". Next year I am going to get so much better at not spending all of it. First semester is over! I feel a whirlwind of feelings about it. I am so happy that I do not have to wake up at 8 AM for a while and that there are no more reasons for me to pull three all nighters in a row! But it is all so bittersweet. I will miss waking up to the Green line telling people to exit out of the doors on the right and for my friends to come bustling into my room at all hours laughing and talking. It's exciting living here with people so similar to me. Home is going to be different this summer. I think that I am going to like it but then again i will probably just wish it away. I feel like as you get older you just wish your life away. You wish this deadline was over and you wish the holidays were over... you wish you were older and that you could just finally go to a bar and drink! But none of that is really important when it comes down to it. I want to just exist and be happy within my existence. I feel like it's important to not take anything for granted, our times on this earth are so short and we have so little time to express our love to people that we care about. All I want to do this summer is to create some kick ass art and get tan as fuck. I want to drive around Holden and get drunk with some close friends. I want to save my money and become a little bit more responsible. The thing about responsibility is that some people think you have to lose your goofy side when you gain this new personality trait when really maturity is not always being so rigid and uptight. I like to know that I am still fun and that I don't need to take life so seriously when in fact it is such a short thing. I guess this post has helped me come to the conclusion that although I may not have any money I can still have fun this last week in Boston. All I want to do is surround myself with wonderful people and go outside. Boston I will miss you too much for the next couple of months.