Okay, so I've wanted to blog for like this entire week but have been way too exhausted.
ANYWAY today I guarded with one of my favorite people in the world. ALSO I got my license which is so cool. It feels so weird to drive alone, something I have never really done before. The first thing I did was make myself a mix CD for the car.
I just got back from my vacation this week. It was much too long. You know when you're on vacation and you want all of your friends social lives to stand still? Well that was like seven or eight straight days for me. Way to many.
I really wanna do something, work makes it so impossible to sleep over anywhwere. Kayt's dad is leaving though so I can sleep over her house, SHOUTOUT. God this is one of my most obnoxious blogs.
I feel so itchy right now, I also cleaned my entire room in like a frantic panic. I hate when my room is too messy and usually end up making it beautiful. All day I worried about it! But now it's clean, I even changed my sheets. I love when you change your sheets and you are clean and you are laying under then and they're so cool and crisp (vomit, I hate the word crisp) and there is a fan on you? That is going to be my night tonight.
I haven't started ANY AP art stuff. It's making me so nervous, I just want to get it done but I have literally no time.
Now that I'm in the third week of camp I have fallen back in love with all of the campers. They are so cute! I've realized that it is so easy to have your day made by a first or second grader as long as they pay attention to you or tell you that you're their favorite counselor. It's like I am the child and they hold all the power. There are always the demon seeds though. They make work a little bit harder, but hardly. My arm is filled with gimp and beads and silly bands from campers and I hate silly bands.
I bought so many new clothes on vacation. A little unecessary and over indulgent but whatever. We only live once right?
Yesterday I got to hang out with two of my closest friends whom I haven't seen since before I went on vacation. I love bonding. I love the kinda friend where you can pick up where you ended. I also realized how much I love it when people drunk dial me. Obviously not as much as when I drunk dial people.
I LOVE GREASE!
Okay that's about all I had to say, stay classy blog readers. ;)
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
New Hampshire
Vacation is both an excellent and a terrible thing. The escape from home, the relaxing poolside nights, the daily hikes; now those are the excellent things. But there is always something, one little thing ruining the nice relaxing time. Most of the time it's a family member complaining about their feet hurting or how they want to do something else or making the entire family stop to take a lame family picture in front of a sunset or some shit.
But overall I'm having an excellent time, the air up here is so refreshing. Every breath is like a new realization that I NEED to spend the rest of my life up north. I would love to wake up every day and hike a new trail and just live deep in the wilderness.
Yesterday I was walking into the cabin that we were staying at, on my way there I witnessed a RACCOON! It was so awesome, they really do look like little buglars. I got down on my hands and knees so that I wouldn't scare him (I presume it was a him), but I think that make matters worse.
The place that I am staying at is my stepmom's boss'. It's really beautiful, like I could live here. Whenever I get here though I always look at the art that my stepmom's boss' daughter made. For some reason it always weirdly bugs me, well it did always weirdly bug me. But at the moment I'm realizing that I am no art critic, and criticizing art isn't going to make me any better or any worse. That's her style and who am I to judge.
I miss childhood, no judgement. I hate the fact that anyone better looking than me or anyone that has a cool watch or car or something is automatically judged in my head. What I need is to be happy with what I have, what I need is to stop HATING everything and start to accept it and embrace it. I think that's what everyone needs to do; coexist.
It's really hard to blog without spell check, I'm a terrible TERRIBLE speller. It's one of my downfalls other than the fact that I have no visual memory. Well for the most part.
One of my strengths is the fact that I am really good at memorizing songs, I have like a library of songs that I have 80% to 90% of the words memorized. It's pretty extreme.
You know when you're sitting in a public setting, and your chair squeeks and is sounds suspiciously like a fart? So to let the public know that it wasn't in fact a fart you do it like six billion more times. Well I find that to be a really funny thing that humans do, we like to cover up things that happen so naturally. I mean, even typing the word fart makes me really uncomfortable.
I wish I was more interesting, or had something to talk about.
Let me think...
AHA, I really wanna go to a concert, like really bad. I want to thrash my body around and go insane. I want to get pushed and sweat and be sweat on and just feel flesh against flesh.
I love flesh.
I have discovered some really weird things that I find attractive in men, for instance, FLESH, I love skin. And not like face skin, my favorite skin is arm skin, like the upper arm, also I love thigh skin. Another thing I really like is eyelids. Some people have really beautiful eyelids. And lastly, I love watching men drive...
There you have had a peek inside of my brain. Alright, I'm about done for today, hopefully I'll be able to blog sometime in the near future of my vacation.
peace and blessins.
But overall I'm having an excellent time, the air up here is so refreshing. Every breath is like a new realization that I NEED to spend the rest of my life up north. I would love to wake up every day and hike a new trail and just live deep in the wilderness.
Yesterday I was walking into the cabin that we were staying at, on my way there I witnessed a RACCOON! It was so awesome, they really do look like little buglars. I got down on my hands and knees so that I wouldn't scare him (I presume it was a him), but I think that make matters worse.
The place that I am staying at is my stepmom's boss'. It's really beautiful, like I could live here. Whenever I get here though I always look at the art that my stepmom's boss' daughter made. For some reason it always weirdly bugs me, well it did always weirdly bug me. But at the moment I'm realizing that I am no art critic, and criticizing art isn't going to make me any better or any worse. That's her style and who am I to judge.
I miss childhood, no judgement. I hate the fact that anyone better looking than me or anyone that has a cool watch or car or something is automatically judged in my head. What I need is to be happy with what I have, what I need is to stop HATING everything and start to accept it and embrace it. I think that's what everyone needs to do; coexist.
It's really hard to blog without spell check, I'm a terrible TERRIBLE speller. It's one of my downfalls other than the fact that I have no visual memory. Well for the most part.
One of my strengths is the fact that I am really good at memorizing songs, I have like a library of songs that I have 80% to 90% of the words memorized. It's pretty extreme.
You know when you're sitting in a public setting, and your chair squeeks and is sounds suspiciously like a fart? So to let the public know that it wasn't in fact a fart you do it like six billion more times. Well I find that to be a really funny thing that humans do, we like to cover up things that happen so naturally. I mean, even typing the word fart makes me really uncomfortable.
I wish I was more interesting, or had something to talk about.
Let me think...
AHA, I really wanna go to a concert, like really bad. I want to thrash my body around and go insane. I want to get pushed and sweat and be sweat on and just feel flesh against flesh.
I love flesh.
I have discovered some really weird things that I find attractive in men, for instance, FLESH, I love skin. And not like face skin, my favorite skin is arm skin, like the upper arm, also I love thigh skin. Another thing I really like is eyelids. Some people have really beautiful eyelids. And lastly, I love watching men drive...
There you have had a peek inside of my brain. Alright, I'm about done for today, hopefully I'll be able to blog sometime in the near future of my vacation.
peace and blessins.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Goodbye Sterling
Blogging has not been part of my life as of late but I wanted to have one last hoorah before I go on vacation, which I am so excited for. Most vacations I get really upset; I don't want to be with my family, I get sick of the cottage that I stay at, etc. Mostly the family thing.
But this year is different, I am actually really excited to be with my family, although I live with them I don't ever see them. Also I am so excited to get away from Sterling, and the work force, and the drama, and STERLING! I just need to get away from it all in the beautiful mountains of New Hampshire. I want to swim in the icy water, jump from root to root on the tree filled trails, relax out in the cool air.
All of that sounds so god right now, I can't even wait.
One of the best parts of going on vacation is packing, it's like a reminder of all the things I own that I don't really even need. I'll pack them anyways though; to look cool. Cause isn't that what we all worry about on vacation, looking cool...
I got my first paycheck of the year today, 540 dollars or so. Excellent.
Lifeguarding has made me look out for swimmers in every lake and or pool that I visit. I am constantly counting how many people are swimming, who looks like they might be weak; they'll need a closer eye, who looks like they are going to break an unnecessary amount of rules. It's really stressful and I get wicked annoyed when I see the lifeguards on duty not paying attention. I really like having all that power at my job, I get to yell at people, people NEED to listen to me. It's empowering.
A couple days ago I went skinny dipping for the first time at a lake. I felt so free! It was kind of terrifying though, I have a weird fear when I'm not able to see the bottom of lakes. It's like I don't know what's lurking down there; leeches, snakes, turtles. Fitting right, I work at a lake. LAWL!
Okay this is forced. It was nice to blog though.
But this year is different, I am actually really excited to be with my family, although I live with them I don't ever see them. Also I am so excited to get away from Sterling, and the work force, and the drama, and STERLING! I just need to get away from it all in the beautiful mountains of New Hampshire. I want to swim in the icy water, jump from root to root on the tree filled trails, relax out in the cool air.
All of that sounds so god right now, I can't even wait.
One of the best parts of going on vacation is packing, it's like a reminder of all the things I own that I don't really even need. I'll pack them anyways though; to look cool. Cause isn't that what we all worry about on vacation, looking cool...
I got my first paycheck of the year today, 540 dollars or so. Excellent.
Lifeguarding has made me look out for swimmers in every lake and or pool that I visit. I am constantly counting how many people are swimming, who looks like they might be weak; they'll need a closer eye, who looks like they are going to break an unnecessary amount of rules. It's really stressful and I get wicked annoyed when I see the lifeguards on duty not paying attention. I really like having all that power at my job, I get to yell at people, people NEED to listen to me. It's empowering.
A couple days ago I went skinny dipping for the first time at a lake. I felt so free! It was kind of terrifying though, I have a weird fear when I'm not able to see the bottom of lakes. It's like I don't know what's lurking down there; leeches, snakes, turtles. Fitting right, I work at a lake. LAWL!
Okay this is forced. It was nice to blog though.
Monday, July 5, 2010
ooof
Lady Gaga does this version of this Cold Play song, I forget the name of the song.. But back to my point, I love it more than anything. I just love Lady Gaga, if I ever met her I wouldn't know what to say. I hate that interaction is something that humans perfected with words and sign language and facial expressions but we still feel so awkward using it all. Why is it harder to interact with some people than it is with others, why do all silences need to be filled with noise and words, why can't we just enjoy the silence.
As it turns out I'm not in the mood to blog today, I haven't been for a while. I need to become inspired, I'm sure it will happen soon. Until then I'm not going to force all of this weird babble out of myself to try and convey how I feel. Mood status; jittery and excited to go to the rail trail. But a little bit sad, just a little, I couldn't tell you why.
As it turns out I'm not in the mood to blog today, I haven't been for a while. I need to become inspired, I'm sure it will happen soon. Until then I'm not going to force all of this weird babble out of myself to try and convey how I feel. Mood status; jittery and excited to go to the rail trail. But a little bit sad, just a little, I couldn't tell you why.
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